It's time to get serious....

Ok ok. I haven't written in a while. Maybe I have been stubborn, maybe I just haven't had anything to say. Maybe I have been slacking off in my walk with God and was too embarrassed to write anything serious because I didn't sound sincere. But, God is moving in my life. I can feel it. This whole process of being a Christian is a hard journey. Parts of my life have been super easy, and others gut wrenchingly hard. One of those hard things was losing a son followed by another miscarriage. Last Tuesday we had the first meeting at my house for the Bible Study, Breaking the Silence. It was sweet to be among believers who have walked down the same road, but also incredibly hard to surrender and be vulnerable. Because, honestly, I still struggle. I struggle with my faith in the hard stuff. I don't understand. It is easier to ball up and become hard to the broken world, discarding my feelings into something that just happened and now it is time to move on. It is easier, but that isn't what God wants out of us. He wants to break open our hearts to see the gift of Hope that Jesus offers. We talked a lot on tuesday night. Tears came, we laughed, we prayed. One question kept popping up though. If we all still struggle, and sometimes to the point of just going through the motions, what keeps us walking this road of faith? Listening to the answers of these women filled my heart with Joy. Joy because, Jesus is bigger than any circumstance that comes our way. Joy that one day all things will be made right. Perseverance, because we know who we are in Christ, we knew before these things happened, and we know now. A friend, shared this quote on facebook: "God will not protect us from that which perfects us"

You know, the more I step outside of myself, and focus on others, the more I realize that this thing that happened was a gift. I realize that Jesus is seriously working.

I have this thing I do with secular songs. I make them about Christ a lot. I recently was introduced to this song, Where the road meets the sun. I thought this is true. Things happen in life, good, bad , and the ugly. But you know what? When all is said and done, We will walk where the road meets the Son.